Where has the time gone to??? Ok, a quick update, Vince did stay at his place that Friday evening and we met up on the Saturday for bowls and then onto a meal for my sister's 40th and everything was fine. We both 'missed' each other and I think that his night at his flat has made him appreciate what 'we have'.
We reached our 6 month anniversary (is there a name for this, like a demi-versary?) and now only have 5 days until our holiday. I believe that depending on how the holiday goes, Vince will give up his flat when we get back. We've had a couple of conversations about 'us' and 'the future' and 'emotions' usually after he's had a bit to drink as he tends to be very guarded about telling me how he feels.
Overall, my understanding of the situation is this, Vince loves me and wants this to work, however lurking from our past is the 'fear' that I could change my mind at any moment. He rarely tells me that he loves me, saying that his actions should be enough for me to know, but again, when prompted into a discussion, he'll admit that his reasons are to do with the past. In his own words, 'I told you I loved you only for you to steal my heart, tear it into pieces and then stamp all over it, only for you to come back into my life and do it all over again'. I know that he's looking forward to our holiday and I also know that it's a final 'test' of me. He does have a point, although we've been practically living together for the past 5 months, we've not spent 24 hours a day for 7 days, together.
We do talk more openly about the future. He's looking to change jobs, progress in his career and does ask my opinion on vacancies and locations. We've looked at changing my car and the possibility of buying somewhere together but no firm plans on either. I really believe that the holiday will be a make or break time, not that I intend to let that stop me having a good time, and I firmly believe that when we get back he will give up his flat.
On my job front, I leave my current place on Friday so that I start my secondment when I return from holiday on 1st October. Have arranged to go out straight from work on Friday evening with my current work crowd and intend to have one or two drinks!!! Had already arranged to have Monday off as annual leave to give me a chance to do my packing, the flight is a ridiculous time of 6.20am which means leaving home somewhere around 3 - 3.30am!!!! Anyway, have babbled on enough now, will update you after the holiday!!
