As you can probably tell from my lack of posts, thing are going well for me at the moment. I've always found writing (and now blogging) helps me 'clear my mind' and gives me the opportunity to say the things I wish I could have, or was brave enough to have said. Without this blog I don't know how I would have made it through the last year. I still can't quite believe that as at 3rd May I will have been divorced a whole year!!
Looking back I've had some really low points, and done some pretty stupid things but with the help and support of my friends, family and the community here in blogland, I somehow have made it through. Yes, I may be looking at things through slightly rose coloured glasses at the moment and yes I'm quite prepared for there to be some low points still to come, but now I know that I WILL be ok and that I'm NOT a failure just because I couldn't make my marriage work.
I've also found someone who I care about very much, Vince (yep I've finally named him!). I've found that with him I can openly talk about things including subjects that with the ex were 'taboo' or 'just not discussed'. I guess this is why I've not felt the need to blog so often. I've spoken to my family and close friends about my 'feelings' and guaged their reactions as to whether they think it's too soon to be getting so deeply involved with someone else and the overwhelming opinion is to 'go for it' as they believe I've spent too long being with someone who never let the sun shine on me. So now I'm openly telling you, my blogland friends, that for the first time in a very long time - I'm in love. I'm with someone who puts me first, second and third, someone who asks me things and actually listens to my answers and who makes me smile simply by being in the same room. I'm hoping that my blog now takes an upward turn, becoming positive and happy, just like I am xx
2008-04-28 @ 20:43