2 Christmas parties later and I seem to still be under a bit of a 'black cloud'. Have tried to get out, do things, be around people, but to no avail. I guess being off work for nearly a week hasn't helped and being broke certainly doesn't do much to lift my spirits!
Lying in bed last night my thoughts turned to ex and the past year. I cried uncontrollably, big sobbing crys that I haven't done in a couple of months. I have to let the past go, not necessarily forget but maybe I have to forgive, not only ex but also forgive myself for being stupid and believeing his lies - again! Not sure how to go about this yet, but think I feel another of my 'infamous' letters coming on - except this one will be just for me and of course my friends in blogland.
