Actually cried again last night, so confused, I want the pain to stop. I want to stop this rollercoaster and shout 'Let me Off!'
Patience has never been one of my virtues, so this morning I emailed ex back. Had spent most of the night awake thinking about what to put and had finally decided on the following:
..........A very nice thought but don't see the point in exchanging presents this year, so no thanks.
and then I waited.... My email is set up at work to notify me when email has been received and again when read... so I waited.
Preciously one minute later I recevied a delivery notification follwed by an email reply saying......
..........Please note I am out of the office until Monday 3rd December and will respond to emails on my return.
Felt a wave of panic sweep over me and then of course the questions began, where is he?, has he gone away? who with? Have to keep reminding myself that it's none of my business anymore, but it doesn't stop me feeling crap inside! Would love to be able to hibernate until next summer!
