and breathe!  count to 10, 1...2....3.......4............ still no good,  Arrggghhhhhhh!!!!!

OK, calm down.....  Just had an email from ex.  Not a lovey, dovey, I'm sorry email, just an 'I saw this on Amazon and thought of you' email, with the added comment hope you're ok and signed off with a X   So I'm reading too much into this, or am I??  Does ex really know that my internet security is due for renewal soon or is it just a coincidence he sent me this and it's his birthday this weekend, hmmmm????

Whatever his reasons it had an instant effect, straight to the bathroom - ok too much information but how on earth has he still got such control over my bodily functions????

And why send it tonight?  He knows Tuesday is my day off, so I have nothing to occupy myself except wonder what he's up to!!!  I will not respond, ok so I have actually ordered the product he suggested but he doesn't need me to tell him that nor does he deserve my thanks.  I will delete the email and pretend it never was sent, if only!